See ya suckers
The last few days I've felt terrible. Not physically but emotionally & mentally. I feel dark inside, depressed. No reason really whatsoever. My life has been nothing but happy lately. This came out of the blue..well I'm going to assume it's due to extreme lack of sleep mixed with way too much drinking. I need to harness my chi. I don't even know what that means :) But tonight I'm going to do things that make me happy. I'm going to clean and do yoga and play guitar until my fingers hurt. Music can always chase away my demons.

A haunted mandolin has caused trouble for my boys. Coincidentally my dark days started when they purchased it. We are way too connected but I love it. They left it in the desert so hopefully things will look up. I know they will. I'm going to get rid of my proverbial haunted mandolin tonight. I'm done, over it. It's been 4 years that I've clung to these damn things that I thought I needed. But all they do is bring darkness. I don't need them anymore, sorry Stella, time to die.

Who's crazy now? haha, yea, still me.

I'm going to make jumbo prawns now for the bosses and maybe a few for the chef.